I want everyone to like me, and I want to do right by everyone. I’m so scared to do wrong that sometimes I don’t do at all. I’m often scared to make decisions, because I don’t like to risk being wrong. The other day I made a decision. I had 3 seconds to say “turn around” and I did. That turned out to be the wrong decision, but the old me would choke and ask for other people’s opinion. Because old me haven’t valued my opinion.
It is liberating to do and not hesitate.
Everyone is to scared to do wrong, scared because they think that people care. So we end up caring about stuff that doesn’t really matter in the long run. I have decided to stop with my people pleasing-ness, because it doesn’t allow me to grow as a person. If I keep pleasing everyone around me, I will peddle water for the rest of my life. I’m committed to be a doer, a decision maker, and stop apologizing for me and my decisions, because I will trust that my decision is as good as anyone else. Because I’m not stupid. Just a bit silly sometimes.