It is scary sometimes, life. There is so many “what if’s”. I don’t ever want to doubt that I will in fact get to do what I love for a living, that I will get my dream house, my dream life. And I don’t. I know I will. But what if??? It is a nagging feeling that I just want to flush out of my system. Because it is scary. I look at all the inspiring people around me and I think that I can too! But then I get scared that people will say that I can’t. Whatever their words mean, and whoever they are, I don’t know? But when I want things badly it scares me. It scares me because I know what I want, because that turns it into something I can loose. And usually that makes me “not do”. It makes me cancel. When I get scared I just keep dreaming. In a way that just mean that I loose it anyway. Instead of living. Doing. Being.
I’m chasing all of that now, and I can still be scared, but I will not give in again, because I believe that I can do whatever I want to do. And I am so greatful that I know what I want, because there is nothing more frightening than not knowing. After all, life is amazing. Scary, but amazing <3