Happiness is when what you think and what you say and what you do is in harmony
That panic. Something needs to change. Now. How can I be better? How can I be happier? How can I make people see me? That panic used to occur in my body every so often back in the days. We all feel like a bit of a change sometimes, but back then, it was more a need than a want. I always gravitated towards the scissors to get myself a new haircut. Usually mid TV-show. Without thinking I just cut it. I get confused with the mirror so more than once my hair ended up on the opposite angle than I originally planned. Like the fringe would go from longer to shorter. And mum had to come in and help me clean this mess up. That need to change, be someone else can be painfully frustrating, and that change of hair-due can act as more of a relief than you could possibly imagine.
As my mind got calmer, and my self-confidence grew, my panicky feeling of wanting to change constantly, have disappeared. Sometimes I’m ready for new, but that ready-ness now comes from a place of calm, rather than from a place of panic.
My hairdresser (and friend I’d like to think) here in Brighton, is one very cool lady. I always love to pick her brain when I’m in. She runs a business all by herself, Tylers Hair Design, she is always booked out so I need to plan my appoints well in advance. The salon is beautiful, and so is she. She is a mum, a business owner and I think a lot of people would agree to say that she also plays some kind of psychiatrist job in our lives. Like, it is a place to vent. And she always make me feel like I can do whatever I want, and encourage me to go for what I want. Those are the sort of people you want to have in your life.
What I’m saying is, don’t go with that spontaneous panic, don’t feed it and don’t let it feed on you. Make your change come from a place of peace. A place of peace and love.
Thank you, thank you, thank you Leanne, for always swinging my hair and thought into the right place.