Some of you might be familiar with the challenge I set myself. The one where I will train max every second day, eat one portion of food, stress less etc. for 42 days.
Well something funny happened. Just after deciding to do this, my workout-stress disappeared. Once in a while I have to tell the voices in my head that it is ok not to workout, but most days I just live in this calm of being OK with just being.
As soon as I let myself just be a little, without looking at the clock, pinching my fat, thinking what I could to, how much I should work out etc. it was like I finally had time to just live.
To be honest, I have barely thought about my challenge, because I haven’t had to. It has all just worked out. I haven’t had to think about my challenge because as soon as I decided to change, as soon as I chose to live a life without my created musts I didn’t need to push myself to live. Life was here, waiting for me to live it.
My main aim with my challenge was to find some peace of mind. I come to understand that I was rushing around, trying to make everything fit into my schedule without any compromises. Compromising meant failing. My life was so organized and planned that I stressed about planes that I hadn’t even made yet. Everything I did had to be a part of my plan. There wasn’t anything called “just doing”. And when I had a break from all my do’s and must’s I understood that a lot of people that I love I couldn’t give my all to, because my schedule wasn’t allowing for spontaneity.
So to answer my own question. The challenge has gone so well that I haven’t even noticed that I’ve challenged myself. It’s natural. It’s life.