Today I feel like I know that I’m going somewhere but I have no patience in getting there. I’m like a kid in the back of a car. “are we there yet” before I’ve even put the seatbelt on. I’m at a point right now where I feel like something needs to happen, and I also know that I am the only person that can make shit happen in my own life, with my own ideas.
I’m a coward when it comes to a lot of things. I’m scared of failing and I’m scared of uncertainty. But how can I ever get somewhere if I don’t put myself out on uncurtained water first? There is impossible to know an outcome of something before it’s done. That’s why people stick to what is certain and what they know. But what if I don’t want that life? Then I have to chance and challenge my fear of the uncertain, otherwise I have no chance in winning what I dream of.
The biggest step is to commit. I understand now that the biggest step is to take the first step and commit to actually changing something. After the first step, when there is no turning back, I will meet whatever comes at me with an open mind.
Now I just have to take a deep breath and make shit happen in my life. I’m ready.